People usually start off treating me kindly, but over time their behavior shifts toward dislike and hostility. Despite my genuine efforts to be caring and accommodating, others often perceive me as rude or uncaring. They begin to disregard my boundaries and treat me dismissively. Even those initially supportive often turn against me or side with others. My ideas and contributions frequently go ignored, while less thoughtful suggestions from others are praised. I seem to unintentionally provoke negative reactions, despite my best intentions. When disputes occur, authority figures consistently side with others, regardless of objective facts. Even my professors overlook my objectively high-quality work, favoring coworkers whose contributions are clearly inferior and often later proven incorrect. Recently, during a soccer match, the opposing team became openly hostile, and one player deliberately injured me. Although I forgave him later, incidents like this spark intense anger and a strong urge to confront and retaliate aggressively. I fear that under bad circumstances, this could escalate into group physical violence against me. I've noticed this troubling pattern for some time and genuinely don't understand its cause. I'm committed to resolving this issue once I clearly identify what's causing it. Have you experienced something similar or do you have insights on this? Your thoughts would be greatly appreciated.

If I am with someone in person or talking over the phone, they are engaged and care about me. But what happens when I am not with them? Why would anyone care about me when I am not around them? What makes people care about you behind your back? What makes people care, at all? Essentially why anyone would do anything without any reason, why anyone would unconditionally care? Little Background: I have never been a compassionate person, I don't understand compassion. (edit) Or like why would a Buddha care about me? I provided nothing to them, they even never met me, but I feel still they will care about me. Why? How? (will this question suit better in any other StackExchange?)

It is said that Devadatta, before turning on the Buddha, was a good monk with psychic abilities and grace. What were the motivations behind his goodness before he turned evil? Was he only being kind to earn a good image, and so later on was feeling unsatisfied and wanted more?