Unloved or loved?

Does Allah love all His believers equally? Sometimes I am really scared that maybe He no longer loves me. My life now is full of hardships, to the point that I pray for death but even that is not granted. My family calls me worthless and curse me for my smallest mistakes, I cannot marry for no man says a word back after they see my bio data. Nor can I go abroad because I lack funds. I suffer from severe depression to the point that even getting out of bed is difficult. Going to a doctor is impossible because of how bad corona situation is. So I am unable to pray my salah or even function properly. I feel so stuck that death seems the only beautiful release. Yet Allah refuses to grant me even death. So I wonder is it possible that at times Allah can stop caring about His believer?