Unconscious Grasping to a Self

In daily life, I guess my self-grasping is not very salient; people tell me I'm considerate, open. However, I've written stories in the past, and in my fiction I project these fantasies that are incredibly grandiose and self-absorbed. I'm not sure what to conclude here. **Is it possible to have an unaware, unconscious self-grasping (which would here transpire in my stories)?** Or perhaps, **could writing down and elaborating grandiose, self-themed stories *exacerbate* self-grasping which would otherwise be much less?** I am somewhat confused about this as, as I said, these stories seem not to fit my day to day personality, but clearly possess important themes of self-grasping.