Difference Between Belief and Valuing

Just as in Buddhism one's *views* and *self* are questions of importance for well being, I noticed my difficulties relating to spirituality relate precisely to those two topics. On the one hand, I don't hold the belief in the intrinsic existence of the self and of views in general. On the other hand, in writings I produce there arises views and self-related imagery which betray an attachment to those two things. In my fiction, there's great and visible conceit, a kind of obvious self-valuing. In the theoretical texts I write, the valuing of certain views is obvious. In both cases, it seems more a question of **attached valuing** than truly holding definitely those things as true. **Why am I valuing these (created views and self) with cherishing and esteeming, but still feel (perhaps out of some delusion) that they are not intrinsically real? What are the mental factors involved?**