No aim. No perspective. Begin of 30y. Scared about political-decisions. Paranoid. What should I do?

Please make sure you read the whole text before giving me an answer. I'm very serious about this and search a very good advise, something I didn't think before. This year I'll become 30 years and I'm standing in the middle of nothing. My boss fired me and all in all I feel I quitted more jobs in my life than changing my underpants. I've no motivation to do something cause I've no aim for something. When I started to do something (no matter what) I concentrate on it for a few days / weeks / months and than I left it and do something new or nothing, cause everything makes me bored from time to time or stressed me to much. Then there are times I decided to do something very cool. These are the times I started to do something new for a particular time. But when I'm into it and I don't "throw it away" I think about all the political decisions (internationally) and get paranoid of a world war 3 or something like this. That's the reason why I don't want to do anything, cause I think "When I do something and the worstcase comes over us, there was no need to learn / do it." I'm very deep in conspiracy theories and work sometimes hours, days, weeks and month to find out "the truth". That's the reason why I think like I mentioned above. And that brings me to another fact: I seriously hate this system of life. I've the opinion we are not on this planet to work and pay taxes. In my point of view, both are waste of time --> Working for money, to make a low life - never become that successful, that I don't have to worry about the most money-cases. In my opinion we are here to find a higher self. Now there are 2 possibilities: 1. I want to stay in a monastery. Become a monk. But I can't cause of my girlfriend. (But I think her thinking is right as well: "You just want to flee from everything".) 2. I don't want to build a future with making decisions with/for her when we broke up anyway someday. (That's just my thinking) My girlfriend is telling me, I should concentrate more on myself than on her. I should do more what I want, not what she want or what is "best" for a common future. (Yes, she really loves me - no sarcasm here) I've a handful of friends more or less but nothing I can work with for my personal life. It's not cause of them, it's cause of me, cause I don't like to talk about the most things. And I've less than a handful of leisure activities. I had no plan in the past and I don't have one right now. In my carreer I developed a photography-eye so my references in photography are remarkable. But I hate to stress myself out to search for some work for it (freelance) and I don't like to work with people at all (commercial studios who work for quantity, not quality). The second thing I can do very well is solving computer problems of all kinds. Even when I've to search in the www for solutions I can solve every problem since I'm a child. Hardware & Software. No matter which kind of operating system. Just doing it like I never did anything before. My actually situation is: I've safed a little money to survive for the next 1 - 2 month. I could search for another job, but the possibility I really hate it is very high and will quit anyway. And I feel myself is to old to do something totally different and become SO good in it, that I become very successful with it. So what should I do generally? I feel like "I just want to quit life and try something else." (if you understand what I mean) Cause everything I do is making me bored. Everything I aim on is not SO special (in my mind), that I would spend my life for it. (For example: Become a programmer: Oh no, it's not THAT cool ... and on and on)